Christmas

Well, it’s December now and everywhere you turn it’s Christmas Christmas Christmas!

Its a bittersweet time for a lot of us.  I don’t know about you but it certainly makes the loss of  James even harder.  I want to enjoy Christmas with my two daughters and my friends.  I try so hard to enjoy the parties and see all the posts on Facebook, putting trees up etc.  But deep down there is a horrible twist in the pit of my stomach, a mixture of sadness and a bit of jealousy.  I know I should be happy for all the people with the little kids, planning for Christmas, the visits to Santa, stressing over what toys to buy but it just breaks my heart.

I want to be the Nana taking my little prince to see Santa, spending hours in toy shops choosing his gifts.  Looking forward to the delight on his face opening his Santa pressies.  But due to SUDC it was all taken away.

I’m not asking people to not celebrate, god knows I’m the first to say to everyone to embrace every moment you have with your family. But, all I’m saying is give a thought to the families who are missing a child this festive period.  We are not miserable spoil sports, but sometimes the season just becomes too much.