Life after Loss

For some reason this year has been hard which has really surprised me.

I was prepared for all the significant key dates, all the firsts, birthday, anniversary of James gaining his wings,  the funeral.  But all these have passed and maybe that’s the problem.

I found myself being super strong after James passing, then all through the first year, something was giving me strength to get through everything.

Then came new year, after that I’ve just struggled badly, this came as a huge shock.

I think for me it’s the realisation of all the things that I won’t be able to do, all the future memories that we as a family will never have.

Im sure I’m not alone and I’ve come to realise that losing James will be a life long struggle for us all.

So what has this taught me, well it’s let yourself grieve, don’t hide emotions.  Some won’t understand but your true friends will.  And that’s what is important.